I had a revelation!!

As the realization that all my credit card debt has been paid off and all i have remaining are a couple small ticket items, I've been thinking about different aspects of life. Several realizations that lead up to one larger all encompassing revelation.

1. I've been responsible and taken action and have taken care of my very old outstanding debts. Debts that left prior chapters of my life open. In some ways, holding me back from moving on with my life.

2. I've finally reached a point where I am completely content with my body. I like food and I like to eat. I'm not going to torture myself by dieting and denying myself delicious rich extravagant foods. I will however enjoy them in moderation and exercise to keep my heart healthy.

3. I've lived alone for the last year and a half and have traveled alone and have learned how to enjoy and be content with the presence of my own company.

4. I've successfully supported myself for the last several years. Learning how to budget responsibly allowing myself to pay bills and have fun at the same time.

5. I've been in and successfully removed myself from an unhealthy relationship. Making me establish boundaries for what I will and won't tolerate in future relationships. Both friendly and romantic.

6. I have a lifetime goal for myself, actually there's two of them, that are self-centric. I want to do them for me, because I want to do them and not because someone else has any interest in having me do them.

• I want at least one of my pictures to hang on a wall in a museum. This may actually not be accomplished until I'm dead, but it gives me a goal while I take the pictures.
• I want to start an organization for women who have been involved in domestic violence. However, this will not be an organization that caters to the "victim mentality" which I ran into endlessly while I was going through my stuff. I want this organization to focus on the women healing, becoming strong and realizing she can be self reliant. Also, part of this organization will focus on middle and high school girls. Teaching women in the making the signs of domestic violence as well as teaching them that their worth is not wrapped around having a guy in their lives and reinforcing a positive self image to prevent them getting into such a relationship.

All of this leads up to the revelation I had. I believe I've finally reached a point where I'm an adult and have learned some of the most important lessons that life has to offer and have something to bring to the table. For the first time ever in my life, I feel like I'm ready to share my life with a man. Not make him my life, but share my life with him.

Look out world while I'm traveling! :)