reckless abandonment

Some stuff has happened in my life over the course of the month of December, that's made me realize that whether I do it intentionally or not, sometimes I live in a manner of reckless abandonment. Not saying I abandon things, it's rare that I give up without a fight. But I throw all of myself into something, or someone without thought or care of how it could turn out or how i could be hurt by it all. In some ways, I think this could be a down fall, but in other ways, it's probably given me experiences that other people would never have had for fear of the unknown. Case in point, the trip that is rapidly approaching. Only 6 1/2 weeks until I embark on what will probably be the greatest adventure of my life, only to be trumped by marriage and motherhood. That's an insanely big adventure!! There have definitely been moments where I've thought, "what am i doing!? why don't i just take my money and buy a new car and get a new job that I will hate as much as the last and stay in my nice safe little bubble!" These thoughts seem to be happening a little more often as the date gets closer and closer. But I'm going... i'm sticking to it and am going to live my life to the fullest, because I only have one and I'm only young, single and childless once!
So keeping with the abandonment thing.... I'm not abandoning this blog. Although with the frequency of my posts lately, you'd think otherwise (i'm sorry blog, i really do care about you!) I'm going to start a second, separate side blog. Would that be the proper terminology? I'm going to have a blog fling that will focus on me and my trip and that i'll probably try to monetize so I can make some cash while traveling. Probably not much, but at this point, every penny will help! I'm sure I'll still come back here and update as I have time. But this blog will be lurking in the shadows for a while.